Perfectly Possible

30 Day Challenge

Day One- Your stats.

I only know my SW, which I measured last Wednesday. I weighed 210lb. Way more than I thought I was. That really just made me more determined/ sure I was doing the right thing. It hasn’t been a week yet, but after an impromptu weigh-in this morning I am 202. Yay!

Day Two- How tall are you? Do you like your height?

I am 5’5”, and I like being this height. It’s pretty average I would say, and although sometimes I wish I was just a bit taller I’m alright. I think I only with I was taller so that I would have longer legs. =P

Day Three- A picture of your thinsperation. What features do you like about this person?

I’m not really sure if I have a thinsperation, I don’t really want to look like anyone in Hollywood I just want to be healthy. That being said I really like Demi Lovato for being a role model for body image. I look to my sister for healthy eating habits too, she’s in my profile picture and she doesn’t let food control her actions, and she loves to eat healthy food, this is what I’m striving for.

Day Four- Your greatest fears about weight loss.

Not being able to follow through. I have never really had any success with following through with a plan like this, so I really hope that this time I can stick to it. This is going to sound strange and maybe kind of conceited but I’m also afraid of being a lot better looking. It’s because I’m a naturally quiet person like to keep to myself, and maybe it’s just me but when you’re a red head people notice you. Since I’m not that good looking I can easily fade into the background that way, but if I was… well, hopefully it’ll be fine. 

Day Five- Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?

I hate the thought of not being able to climb stairs. I walk to and from work/ school everyday and once I got to stairs I was huffing and puffing. That wasn’t good, I shouldn’t have so much trouble doing something so simple. I don’t want to have trouble doing anything, and I don’t want to die young because of my unhealthy lifestyle. So yes, I am doing it for me, so I can be proud of who I am for a very, very long time. 

Day Six- Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.

I used to binge I guess. I had a really unhealthy eating schedule, I wouldn’t eat throughout the day (mostly because I was always really busy) and then come home and eat a days worth of calories all at once. It was terrible, but it was the way I used to live. I’ve changed the way that I eat and have always made time for meals. It’s working out so far. 

Day Seven- Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care? 

No, I don’t really talk to them much. Even if I told them they would probably laugh at me at this stage, they wouldn’t care until they saw real results.

Day Eight- Your workout routine.

I switch it up all the time, sometimes I’ll do a video, the first few days I did Jillian Michael’s 30 day shred. Then I did some other videos on exercise.tv, also have been just free styling or running. I also like to dance spontaneously but that’s usually just me being silly and not a planned workout. But it’s still great cardio!

Day Nine- Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?

Sure, I’ve been picked on because of my weight. Not lately, I don’t think anyone has made fun of me to my face since about eighth grade. The people who have really made negative comments about my weight have always been my parents. I know that it’s because they love me and they want me to be healthy, but sometimes it just feels like they are being really insensitive. It also doesn’t help that they are both also overweight, but whenever I point it out my dad says that I’m young so it’s worse for me. That’s not true though because I have more time to change my life around and get to where I need to be and my habits can be changed more easily.   

Day Ten- What was the hardest thing you gave up during this “weight loss.”

Well so far I haven’t really felt like I’ve given anything up. Eating out maybe, but I’ve been doing that less anyway. I’ve certainly gained a lot though, I feel more energetic, I sleep better so I’m less tired. I gained more time in my day and I feel better about myself. So that wasn’t hard to give up at all!

Day Eleven- Your favorite thinspo blog and why!

Fitspo you mean =P. I don’t have a favorite per se but there are tons of fitspo blogs. That are amazing, and there are so many people in fitspo that are really motivational. It’s amazing.

Day Twelve- What do you normally eat?

Well I went grocery shopping yesterday so I can tell you what I usually buy and I guess that will be a good indication of what I eat. I bought, eggs, whole grain bread, whole grain english muffins, lots of greek yogurt, frozen strawberries, and a frozen tropical fruit blend, grapes, oranges, spinach, romaine lettuce, brocolli, chicken breast, ground beef, skim mozzarella cheese, granola, almonds, peanut butter, etc. There’s a lot more but this is what I mostly eat.

Day Thirteen- Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?

Healthy, I was unhealthy before and it only made me gain weight, I hope to never go back to that again. 

Day fourteen- What’s your UGW? When you expect to reach it?

I don’t really have a number that I’m aiming for. I want to be able to go about my day without my asthma being a problem, I want to be able to make good choices. I want to be proud of my body and treat it as well as it treats me. 

Day Fifteen- Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?

No, and I don’t think I ever could. I don’t eat meat very often but I don’t think I could just stop having it altogether. It’s not really done in my culture and I don’t have morals against it which is really the only reason I could see someone sticking with it. 

Day Sixteen- When did you first decide to lose weight?

I’ve been so on and off with my weight. But I found myself at my highest weight ever, over 200 and I couldn’t take it anymore. I didn’t want to buy plus sized jeans and I didn’t want to be tired all the time. So slowly I started trying to change. My tumblr really helped me because it made me excited to do this and helped me learn more about healthy ways to achieve my goals. 

Day Seventeen- Do you have an eating disorder?

No, I never had an eating disorder. I used to have terrible eating habits however, I used to eat nothing all day and come home and eat everything in site because I was starving. It wasn’t on purpose I just felt like I never had any time. Now, I’m making time to eat healthy it only takes a few minutes. I really feel for people with eating disorders though and hope for their sake that they get the help they need. And I hate people that put other people that are this way down when really they are sick and need help.  

Day Eighteen- What food is your weakness?

Chocolate. I like dark chocolate though which I like better than milk chocolate which I think is too sweet. Also dark chocolate is supposed to be better for you which is also good. Of course I only have chocolate occasionally. 

Day Nineteen- When is the last time you ate fast food?

Well it depends on what you mean by fast food. If you mean eating out I do that pretty regularly but I always get something as healthy as I can. The last time I went to McDonalds or something like that was maybe three or four weeks ago. And I plan to not go again anytime soon. Unless Subway counts, I go to Subway like once a week.

Day Twenty- Favorite diet?

No diets, just eating healthier. I actually eat a lot more now than I used to but since it’s all healthy I’m always satisfied.

Day Twenty-One- What are your clothing sizes?

14 and Large/ Extra-large. I wear a size 9 shoe. Pretty sure that covers clothing sizes.

Day Twenty-Two- What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain?

I was really thin growing up, I was always really active and I had a lot of friends. I never ate well, and I should have known it would catch up with me. Then I guess around middle school I put on like sixty pounds. Since then my lowest weight was probably my freshman year I was around 160 and I stayed that way until college. I didn’t gain any weight the first year of college, I was active and always watched my portions. Then the second year, I had an apartment, and we had a terrible roach problem. I couldn’t eat at home so I always ate out. Then junior year I moved to another apartment and we had a terrible mouse problem. So, another year of always eating out because our kitchen was a mess and any food we had in the house just wasn’t viable. I know both these years I could have made more of an effort, but it really seemed impossible. Now, everything is good and I’m able to make my own food. I eat much better and hopefully I put my control to good use.

Day Twenty-Three- Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?

I really don’t think so. I don’t want to be stick thin and really the media has such conflicting views it’s too easy to be influenced to think or feel a certain way. So, no what influenced me were the everyday people around me who weren’t struggling with the things I was struggling with. What influenced me was my family and their health problems, or lack of health problems (if they were healthy). 

Day Twenty-Four- How do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia

I don’t understand why someone would promote a disease. People with anorexia and bulimia have serious psychological/physiological diseases and problems and should immediately seek health. If any of my followers feel like they need help they are always free to talk to me, but if you think you have an eating disorder, talk to someone now. Your life is at risk if you have one of these diseases. They will do their best to help you or find you help, and things will get better. 

Day Twenty-Five- Have you ever purged? If you have describe your first experience. 

I’ve never intentionally purged. I’ve eaten/drank so much that I’ve gotten sick, which is terrible so I can’t imagine that happening. 

Day Twenty-Six- What excites you most about reaching your ugw?

The clothes! Shopping spree at forever 21 for dresses!

Day Twenty-Seven- How do you deal with being around food?

If it’s healthy I eat it, and if it’s not healthy I try my best not to eat it. I go through this thing in my head where I think about how hard I would have to work to burn off all the calories, and if I still really want it, then I have a little. 

Day Twenty-Eight- Do you want that “gap” between your legs? Why?

It’s not a necessity or anything, if something like that happens, I’m not going to do backflips or anything. I would like to not have my legs rub together all the time though because it can hurt after a long day. 

Day Twenty-Nine- Your definition of beauty.

To be beautiful is really, really subjective. My definition of beauty I guess falls back to love. Love is the most beautiful thing in the world. 

Day Thirty-  10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?

I wanted to wait until weigh in wednesday to post my stats. I’m 196.2, and hopefully getting smaller. 

10 facts about me

1) I love science, and am a huge science nerd

2) I have a very wonderful boyfriend.

3) When I graduate I really hope I can snag a job as a forensic scientist. 

4) I love dancing, it’s probably my favorite form of exercise

5) Going along with that, if I listen to a bouncy song several times, I will choreograph a dance to it in my head

6) I just found out I like vegetables a lot.

7) I have amazing friends and I’m very happy

8) I work far more than I should.

9) I’m trying to better in my last year of college so I can get my GPA up for a job search.

10) My sisters are my best friends ever and I can’t wait to go home for winter break and see them, even though it may be the last time I get to go for this long for a while.